Experience Puddle of Emotions One Last Time, Seri?
"Perhaps, the difference between what is miserable and that, which is spectacular, lies in the leap of faith." ~ Sushant Singh Rajput (21 Jan 1986 - Forever)
The good thing about a bad movie is that IT ENDS. The bad thing about a good movie is that IT ENDS.
My heart skipped a beat when I first grasped the feeling that 'Dil Bechara' is going to be Sushant Singh Rajput's last ever movie. Initially, I decided not to watch it because deep within, I knew that watching it in the absence of Sushant, is going to be an extremely troublesome and emotionally high journey for me.
But, apparently, I consoled myself, plucked up my heart, and watched 'Dil Bechara' in one go. I get a heavy lump in my throat when I think of that 100 minutes - one of the toughest minutes for me to sit through. The movie starts with Sushant's self-written musing that reads, "Perhaps, the difference between what is miserable, and that, which is spectacular, lies in the leap of faith." And that's exactly what 'Dil Bechara' does to you; it makes you take that leap of faith.
The best thing about the movie is the most beautiful, purest, and deepest relationship that blossoms between Kizie Basu (Sanjana Sanghi) and Immanuel Rajkumar Junior, aka Manny (Sushant Singh Rajput). Their relationship depicts how two ordinary people effortlessly happen to make an extraordinary love story. Their bond gracefully exemplifies young love and two souls who are empathizing and connecting as life plays its wicked oscillating games giving them a chance only momentarily to live and love with absolute abandon when both suffering from a terminal illness, Kizie with Thyroid Cancer and Manny with Osteosarcoma.
I had an overwhelming rush of emotions that kept on swaying whenever Sushant Singh Rajput appeared in the frame. However, at the very same time, I had a subconscious thought in my mind that this is the last time I am seeing this contagious smile on screen, and that was the most dreadful feeling for me.
If I talk about scenes, there is not just one; there are oodles that have left me heavy-hearted. Manny (Sushant) outshined in most of the sensitive moments.
- You (Manny) always looked at the positives (even when surrounded by dread) and were well-aware of the inevitability of grief and death.
- You appeared as a convivial fighter who showed us a window to life's reality, the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and life and death.
- You were the one who made Kizie smile merely through your wit moments and made her fall in love with herself.
- You were the one who initiated to complete Kizie's favorite unfinished song.
- You were the one who reminded Kizie's father that even if her dreams might seem silly, they are still worth endeavoring for.
- You were the one who falteringly tried to convince everyone that you're not scared of anything in life.
- You were the one who found satisfaction in other people's happiness and never wanted others to sympathize or feel sadness for you.
The journey to seek answers in 'Dil Bechara' begins with an unfinished song 'Main Tumhara' created by an artist named Abhimanyu Veer (Saif Ali Khan) in the movie, but originally created by A.R. Rahman, which is going to stay with me for quite a long time. The prophetic line will surely leave a sense of introspection within you.
When Kizie and Manny go to Paris to meet Abhimanyu Veer to get the answer to that unfinished song. They try to initiate the conversation, asking him about his artistic urges, but Abhimanyu continues to turn their questions into unwanted jokes and an unpleasant demeanor. Manny then insults the singer, who blurts, "It's illegal to kill yourself, so you've to live," and that scene remains with you. Saif Ali Khan's special appearance pointedly restates the impact of a void left by a sudden loss. The scene where Abhimanyu (Saif Ali Khan) states for his song to be incomplete is something deep and memorable to watch.
You'll surely be moved by another scene where Kizie's father says that her dream is a bit silly. To which, Manny replies "When I was operated on and told my dad, please don't cut my leg and he said the same thing don't be silly, I might act silly, but that one incident changed my entire life. After the surgery, I used to play basketball, but I didn't have the same magic in me, when I used to jump I didn't enjoy flying, and losing a game was completely justified. I wanted to run but didn't know why I was running; there was a feeling of incompleteness within just like Abhimanyu Veer's unfinished song. I dream big sir, I really do but don't feel like fulfilling them, but when I see Kizie's dream, even if she's a small one, I really feel like fulfilling it. I know it's a bit silly, going to Paris in this condition is a bit silly, but fulfilling Kizie's dream, that silliness is unparalleled." That scene merely left me teary-eyed.
Another scene that hit me really hard was when Manny looked teary-eyed into Kizie's eyes and asked her, "We'll live like this, right? Always." And that's where you realize you can only comfort someone with a resounding 'YES' as Kizie did, but deep inside, you never really know. It's something inevitable; you can't escape it.
Watching the last 30 minutes of the movie is the hardest thing to grasp. You can't help but uncontrollably sob because you know the fate of the love story between Kizie and Manny.
Just like another good movie, I didn't want this one to end; I wanted Manny to take Kizie on another date and open an imaginary door one more time, and take her to the beautiful view one more time. But it ended just like other good things in life, and Manny left us all just like a good movie.
Manny left behind life lessons that will lighten up every dark corner with a beaming light as radiant as his smile. 'Dil Bechara' clearly imparts several life lessons in many ways and the constant need of humans to seek answers for everything.
Dil Bechara was one of the most painful yet beautiful experiences of my life, I must say.
The movie has ended, but your legacy will live forever. Seri, Sushant?
2 comments
Very well explained Shubham. I didn’t watch it yet, but now this read encourages to watch it not once but more.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Kajal for your warm words. Such comments encourage me to write more.
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